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Friday, January 20, 2006

Armpit Ladies!!!!!

I know! how can some people just go all bushy in a public swimming pool! it's just shaving for God's Sake!! will not even take more than 15mins, well less if it's just the armpit. Don't understand how some people can be so ignorant. And it's public swimming pool. Well, I know some people love to go all natural but it's just not my forte. It reflects your hygeine. Such a waste ofa pretty face, I think. Ladies... just take a little bit of your time, once a week maybe, for about 1/2 hr, groom yourself. Not for somebody else, but just for you. Pamper yourself. Make it a habit at least once a week. Your body is a beauty and take really good care of it. Again, not for somebody else, but yourself.

okie enuff of that. Was really happy yesterday. Cycled to the gym, did one hour of cardio, went swimming after for 30 laps and later cycled back home. I'm trying to build back my stamina. I used to be very fit but now I'm just as weak as a steamed vegetable.

Nothing much happening lately. Oh, interview in Durham next tuesday at 4.30pm. Wish me luck!!

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Happy Birthday Syafikah sweetie!!

It's the little angel's birthday today and I got her a cute dark pink girlie top. We blew candles and everyone sang happy birthday. She has just turned 2 today and most probably she has no idea what today means. Nevertheless, one thing precious to remember today for all of us is the smile on her face, with those chubby cheeks and cute little rabbity baby teeth.

Went to Sherry's place for dinner and her cooking was gorgeous. We had 'king prawn masak lemak cili api', 'egg tofu', and 'spicy chicken wings'. The dessert was actually the Syafikah's rich chocolate birthday cake. Went to Rusholme - Manchester's Little India, later on with Ivan, Yani and Feruze. We had coffee and some finger food at one of the restaurants there. That place reminds me of South Hall in London . Not really a big fan of Indian dishes these days.

Went to Iguana Bar right after coz some of my mates wanna have a couple of drinks. To be honest my mind was actually drifting away thinking of my warm comfy bed and not to mention that my tummy wasn't really at it best after eating the spicy 'lemak cili api'. But the moment I had chatting away with them was priceless.

Back to the normal routine tomorrow. Am still waiting for the interview letter from Durham. How long do they have to take just to sort out 3 candidates? Annoying...

Oh, for my two good mates, good luck for your papers tomorrow!! Drop by after for some lunch at Rizkee okie? The Ayam Bakar is waiting for you... hehe..

Nite Nite..

P/S: My current Fav Tune

Tell Her
-Del Amitri-

Tell her not to go
I ain’t holding on no more
Tell her something in my mind freezes up from time to time

Tell her not to cry
I just got scared that’s all
Tell her I’ll be by her side, all she has to do is call

Tell her the chips are down
I drank too much and shouted it aloud
Tell her something in my heart
Needs her more than even clowns need the laughter of the crowd

Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think too much
But say nothing at all
And tell her from this high terrain, I am ready now to fall

Tell her not to go
I ain’t holding on no more
Tell her nothing if not this; all I want to do is kiss her

Tell her something in my mind
Freezes up from time to time.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Where Should I Begin?

There are so many stories to tell yet I'm still staring blankly at my computer screen, wondering where to start. When everyone is all so tied up with their new year’s resolutions, writing them down on paper, I just sit back and wonder instead. Half a month has gone now and I still cannot come up with one. I guess this is my new year’s resolution - not to have one.

Last year’s window has been shut. I’m trying to leave my past behind and not to repeat any of my stupid mistakes. Although the road wasn’t as smooth as I’ve predicted earlier, I’ve been wonderfully blessed with great friends and precious loved ones.

Starting my new life in another city, knowing new people and finally looking at the world from someone else’s eyes, I realize how lucky I am to be where I am right now. Seeing how some people have to struggle to live, depending on so many uncertainties and sometimes luck is all that they have to wish for, I on the other hand, have a relatively promising path in front of me, InsyaAllah, and patience is all that I need. I shall not be complaining about how hard my life is when the others are working twice as hard, yet they don’t even have the chance to taste the joy of life. And by this I don’t mean a holiday under the sun in Barbados, designer clothes shopping in Milan or eating out in fancy restaurants. Most of the time, you tend to take for granted simple things in life that other people are yearning to experience. Like watching movies once in a while, enjoying a cup of nice coffee whilst tasting one of the best cheesecakes in town, going for a walk by the lake, driving around town at night looking at city lights and the nightlife, or even walking around in the most comfortable pair of shoes and a warm winter jacket looking at how beautiful the stars are up in the night sky. For many of us, we’ve done all these things and some of us might even have the luxury to enjoy those mentioned every week or even every day. But for some people, this is just not the case.

For the past one and a half month, I’ve learned quite a lot about the true meaning of living in this world. I learn to appreciate the diversity of people around me. Some people I know can actually afford to drive an X5, or spend hundreds of pound a night for a meal, whereas there are people who have to really watch every penny they spend. There are people who are struggling to live with what little money they earn compared to the amount of work that they’ve put in. Let it be paying the tuition fees, supporting their families, the next month’s rent, or to constantly have food on their plate the next day. Some people on the other hand has a smooth road waiting for them ahead and life has become nothing but more comfortable, Alhamdulillah. As for me, I know that my life will somehow change for the better starting August this year, InsyaAllah. But for some people I know, theirs would be the same routine all along.

Every cloud has a silver lining. My fate last year is actually the beginning of my journey to know and understand, first hand, what I’m experiencing right now. My life in the future will soon be surrounded by more professionals and successful people, InsyaAllah, and Allah has made me realise that no matter how far I go, I will have to always reflect back on my life, the people I know at this moment and be thankful for what I have. It will remind me always as the beauty in life is to treat people with respect no matter where we are and to remember that when Allah has given me the luxury in life, there are people who have to struggle to get just a very little taste of what He has given me. He has shown me through His greatest way to appreciate Him and if one day He grants me with a comfortable life, I will never forget the others who are not so fortunate.

You might learn all these values from your early years in school but to observe and experience it yourself, no textbooks or teachers can sow these values in you. As for me, I thank Him for giving me this opportunity to be a better person everyday. All that I know, I have become a very different person since my so-called ‘tragedy’ in June 2005. All the tears are now becoming a pool of gratitude, showering me with the wisdom of life. I’ve become a stronger, independent person, and a person who respect other people for what they believe and whatever they do.* I can finally see my self blooming into someone who’s really me and not a copy of someone else.

This in fact, is the new me, this year and all the years to come, InsyaAllah.

*In other word, I must not be carried away with all His blessings and not become a selfish bitch.